Got on my phone as soon as I could
Post on my social and tell them I’m good
Fuck all my feeling of pressure and shame
I will go on like I’m stable and sane
Telling myself that I can be strong
Telling myself that I can go on
Do it for likes or the money and fame
Can’ t even get up my days are the same
This is a fantasy this is a dream
This is my real life boring and real!
Look at me, falling ever faster
Look at me, pretending I can master
Life of me, always a disaster
Can’t you see, there is no me!
The split in my mind
I’m wasting my time
I tell you I’m fine
Fighting the demons inside of my head
I’ll never escape them I wish I was dead!
Two different worlds making me choose
I rather be home than posing for you
Working for scraps, Caught in the trap!
New Stuff! Ratatata ta!